Why I'm not having any more kids!!!

So I was talking to my girlfriend about the horrible week I just had and how I don't think I could handle having any more kids, and she suggested I write it down. I asked why?? So I can remember what a terrible mother I am for saying I don't want any more? She said NO so you can remember WHY you don't want any more.
The reason our week was so bad was because Paige came down with what we believe to be the stomach flu. It started Tuesday night about 9:30pm and lasted until Thursday at around 1:00 in the morning. I didn't think it would ever end. To see my baby not even a year not be able to eat, sleep, or play was so sad. Now I know pretty much every kid gets the stomach flu at one point or another, but for me I have a tiny problem of worrying way to much and way to often. I honestly cant handle the stress. Paige is still having issues from this sickness and all I can do is continue to worry. I've decided as of this moment I can only handle worrying about 2 kids, I don't know what the 3rd would do to me as it is I think I've already taken 10 years off my life.

Sea World

Some of us girls got together and took all the kids to Seaworld it was pretty crazy keeping track of all the little ones but man the kids had a great time. Constantly holding hands and laughing, talking together about the animals it was fun to see. It was a great morning until Paige decided to take a header onto the concrete out of the stroller, no thanks to her negligent mother who was standing right beside her and felt there was no need to strap her in. We ended up in the first aid office with an icepack.... luckily no concussion!!!

Daddy took us to the zoo

Do you think Paige is having a good time????




Josh decided to take the morning off a couple weeks ago....which he does not get to do very often unless there is something wrong with the kids, and took us to the Zoo. We had a great time especially now that Paige is a little older and walking, it was fun to see her get so excited to be let out of her stroller to check out her sister, and the animals.

Josh and I went to the Radiohead concert last week for his birthday and all though I don't know most of their songs..... mostly because I don't get to listen to a lot of music these days, it was a really an awesome show.
I have to say it's also been some time since I have been to a concert like that, I cant remember when I've seen so many people smoking weed. I think a few more inhales and I would of been high myself. It was also interesting they way alcohol was creatively brought in with out security knowing. I was sitting in front of this group of four and Josh was talking to a friend of his, so I started just watching them. One of the guy's had binoculars on his neck, well as I'm watching him I see him hand his coke to his girlfriend, take the lenses off his binoculars, which then revealed 2 open flasks, he then proceeded to fill his coke with what I assume was hard liquor. Like I said "creative".
The music was amazing, the instrumental work was crazy, and I actaully really enjoyed the songs. Josh of course was in heaven he LOVES Radiohead, so this year was a good birthday.

Grandma and Grandpa came to visit

Grandma and Grandpa came!!!!! It was so nice we haven't seen them in a while and Lilly was in heaven. We spent the afternoon at seaport village, it was beautiful there and hardly any people. We rode the carousel and had fish and chips. Grandma danced with Lilly to the guitar players and she had a day of almost undivided attention..... it was great for her and me.

First day of school

Lilly's first day of school and she was a pro. This kid has been waiting to go to school for months now, so when the day finally came she hardly even said goodbye, and was not even remotely excited to see me 2 1/2 hours later when I picked her up.
Josh went to the parent open house and saw Lilly's classroom. He said it was so surreal like life had just come full circle at that point, he really enjoyed it.

St. George

So about 2 weeks ago I decided to take a trip to St. George I wanted to visit my friend Trish and I also wanted to get some NAET treatments. For those of you wondering what NAET is I will tell you to look it up because it's a bit difficult to explain but worth learning about. Anyway Josh was planning on being very busy with work so I thought 2 weeks on a mini vacation with just me and the girls would be fun.
First to try and make the trip a little easier I made Josh drive us first to Vegas then on to St. George. Then I had him shuttle back to Vegas to fly home. Josh still has nightmares about the tiny cramped shuttle where he almost had a panic attack due to his mild claustrophibia. We also decided to put Paige in a big car seat a bit early ( I know I'm a terrible mom) well this grand plan should have been tested first because Paige didn't really seem to enjoy the bigger seat. So when she cried, instead of having her back to us crying she was facing us with all of her lung capacity in our ears, which made driving a bit difficult. She cried on and off through out most of the trip to Vegas, I actually had to resort to sitting on the hump in the back seat and nursing her while she was strapped in, and while we were driving because the thought of pulling over and making the drive EVEN LONGER in the blistering heat was not an option.





We were very glad when we made it to Vegas we stayed with a good friend of mine from high school and her son Jake. Jake LOVED Lilly he couldn't get enough hugs, as a matter of fact he loved hugging her so much that when he decided to give a little snuggle too close to the stairs we heard a lot of thudding and then crying. They managed to hug themselves down the flight of stairs, and luckily no one was seriously injured I think the embrace actually helped.



Lilly also got her first haircut, my girlfriend is a hairdresser. As you can see she was not too happy about the cut but when it was almost over and I told her she would be getting a sucker for doing "such a good job" she seemed to be able to force out more of a smile.














The next day we headed out to St. George. That trip went much better since the girls both slept almost the whole way there. When we got to the condo I had rented off of craigslist well things took another little turn for the worst. The condo actually had NO windows in the living area. As you can see in the pictures it looks like it may be night time.........or is it???? Um ya... It looks like that at 7 in the morning too, it gives off quite a dungeon feel. The decor I think may have been picked up off of some body's lawn but I can't be too sure , oh and the smell though a little hard to describe I think it was a bit of old carpet, mixed with new paint, mixed with last centuries dinner left overs.
I was very proud of myself I did manage to vacum, disinfect a little, and get a tart burner.... thanks to my dear friend Trish and we did stay. Lilly Loved it there, I mean she was ready to move and live there forever, I on the other had never really got used to the smell so forever was too long for me.
This is the part I did not impress myself with, I only managed to make it a week in beautiful St. George. I thought Paige was at an age where I could handle doing everything on my own, but come to learn 10 months is really not a very easy age. Trish kept us busy all week which was awesome. We played at some really cool places like water parks, and jumping gyms. We outlet shopped and ate out at some favorite local spots. We spent a lot of time letting the kids play at Trish's house . Her two boys loved my two girls and they played great. Trish made us a few dinners and I got Sonic every single day. I made all my NAET appointments and by Friday I was exhausted, by Saturday I was already heading the 7 hours home.



Over all we had a really nice time, I learned a lot of life lesson's when it comes to traveling and kids, and next year we will try it again putting all those good lesson's to use.